Hehehehehe... yeah.. Look what I've got yesterday when I was "window shopping" in The Beatz music store with n_i_j_i. Taylor Hicks' single album. Yup, that heaven & hell place on earth (for both of us), sells it. I don't know with any record stores in town, but all I know, that is the only AI winner's single album ever sold here... I never see Aiken's, Studdard's, Carrie's or Bo's. Only the full albums. But Taylor's was one of a kind... I thought it wouldn't be sold here at first, after the experience of others AI winner (I did discuss about it with odayski). It was actually nothing to lose for me because, well, I already had the songs (thanks to the internet!). But then again, the feeling of not-a-truthful-fan-if-you-don't-have-the-collections-of-your-idol showed up. I hate myself that I have such idealism, because I spend money "for nothing", but sometimes it brings the happiness that only me (and others who has the same habit) can understand... Regret at first, because you spend too much money, but happy when you know that it's rare (or maybe freak?) among others.. Being the minority sometimes cool.. ^_____^v

Then we had dinner (and that was about 10.30 PM!!! *gubraxx!!*) in the best Jap's noodle restaurant in EX, Beppu Menkan. After finishing our meals, we did a photography lesson. Well, actually that was silly because we took photo of ourself in the "miror" using Tay's cd case..



That was me right on "Tay's black shirt"...

and



Niji, also on "Tay's black shirt"

Niji said that Taylor did bring the "narcissm" out of her. Yeah, she doesn't really like to be the model. She prefers to be the photographer, but this time she likes to be the model.. hehehehehe...
Finally Taylor gives the "positive" effect to her.. She always affected by anyone I take as idols.. *evil grins*

For yesterday experience, now I'm thinking of my "mental health". I sometimes amaze of myself because I spend money for, actually, "worldly desires".. Anything related to Alan Rickman, Taylor Hicks, Harry Potter and any worth-to-buy movies, are stuffs that I enjoy the liberty to pursue..
My father once asked me when I was arranging my DVD collection alphabetically,

"What will you do with those stuffs if you have your own family?"

"I will take 'em, of course..", I said, busy with DVDs..

"After you die? Where are you gonna put them...?"

"I'll inherit to those who loves movies like me...", still busy with my collections.

And my father shouted his mouth..

Yeah, I know I can't bring 'em to heaven or hell, but I enjoy my "worldly desires" while I'm still alive and that brings the self-happiness. It gives you less stress with things you face, at least.. And it happens to most people in the world.. I just wanna feel bless with what I have.. Right? I hope I'm right... *sighs*